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Bye 2008 Hello 2009

2009-01-05T23:54:00.003+08:00

I was woken from my afternoon daze by a colleague, i was like huh? hah? then huh?? quite embarrassing. Probation period seems like ages and its not helping me to concentrate on my work, knowing its not a sure thing i will get the job. But so far, the sign has been good and boss has not been demanding. Anyway, boss always come when about to knock off, its getting weird when seeing him around the office. I found boss always spent hours in the toilet, its not wise to consume a lot of liquid on the afternoon as that is the only place to relieve our need. Boss always give hint before toilet too, if you are smart enough to notice. He would carry with him something to read (newspaper mostly) and he would bark out orders for us to carry to keep us occupied.

2008 has been wonderful to me, working at KNS and finding my new job here. Spent around 3 months jobless was like hell, but it also make me realise to treasure what you have now. Money was all spent during that period and i become a very poor man afterwards. Even now, money is hard to keep with the moving house and buying all the necessary daily stuff.

Living in Bishan has so far been ok, got blamed for a couple of minor stuffs( forgetting to close door when going out, coin stuck in washing machine, door lock spoilt). But good thing the owners have been patient and they are nice people to live with. They wont bother you much so thats suit me fine. There are other indonesians living in this house too, they are nice people as well, though i still have not get much time to mingle with them yet.

Last weekend was sorry to miss the gathering at Lunar with my colleague, Ryan even gave us each a polo tee which i just receive this morning. It is a nice gift from him since we always wear polo t shirt to work and i only have 2-3 pieces to wear. Just receive the photos they took on that day and there was a couple on Vincent too indulging on looking at those pole dancers. haha.

Recently been very lazy to post on this blog, busy watching tv drama little nyonya and today just finish the last episode. I just add its theme song to my playlist and it sounds so weird with my blog. :p

New Year 2009

2009-01-01T02:56:00.002+08:00

Some new year resolutions:
steady finance throughout the year.
learn to be happy even in difficult circumstances.
meet lots of new friends.
be more considerate towards others.
learn to take care of myself.

long vacation finally ends

2008-10-29T22:46:00.003+08:00

the first day in the office today, met some fabulous colleagues and trying real hard to pick up whatever stuff i need to know from ryan. ryan is leaving the company at the end of the month, which is a few days left actually, so the transition period is way too short. guess i will bombard him with phonecalls, smses or emails when he is gone!

i was told by edmund to browse through the photos, the certificates, etc and just relax. later i browsed the net, followed kaijie down to Tuas for business - a breather :P, backed office, found boss in, settled down again in my seat, 5.30pm i went off. haiz, thats life.

surprise wedding proposal

2008-10-17T23:11:00.004+08:00

checked out this lovely video.

Feeling Restless

2008-10-13T23:25:00.004+08:00

a day of juggling between eating and sleeping left me no doubt feeling worthless. still, i flip through the newspapers on the recruit section, scanning for an escape. i made a number of calls, all picked up by beautiful female voices at the other end except for one clueless guy, who cant answer any of my queries. i left him my contact anyway, hoping he would pass to someone else.

i forget how many hours i has slept today in total, many hours i would say. luckily Haitong had time to meet me for dinner, or i would have rotted on my bed. we met at woodland, found MacDonald, settled down and talked about each other's plight. he looked really exhausted from work and in need of sleep.

i dont usually ask a girl out with me, not that i am misogynist, but more because i am not comfortable with opposite sex. definitely a thing i need to learn, but who should i ask?

me not a narcissist

2008-10-11T02:46:00.003+08:00

a report surfaced claiming a person’s narcissism can be predicted by how he or she uses facebook. i am a fan of facebook, but the truth is i am not someone who will spent endless time looking at my reflection, wasting precious time away. anyway, the subject of facebook was maybe used only to gain more attention.

i know of friends who excessively use the online social site to show off, posting lots of photos (not sure the max is how much) and using too many applications (causing my poor old lappy to hang when viewing their profiles)~_~"....but it is still healthy and it just brings about everyone's personality.

2008-10-09T22:28:00.003+08:00

this blog is a month old now! going back through all the posts and i find there is not so much things i wrote about, myself lacking motivation. anyway, the last month hasn't been enjoyable and lots of things seemed to go wrong. i cant complain much now, life goes on and i know i haven't make the correct decisions. Sigh.

huh, today made a rush down Lucky Plaza to buy jersey, but found it was way overpriced and decided to procrastinate, yet again:P i was so surprised to find the EPL logos cost another 50 dollars more and in the end will cost around $180+.

on the way home, bought myself the 'twilight' book to read from the popular bookstore. a book, about love and vampires and happen to have another 3 sequels on the shelve. i hope it will be a pleasant reading material for the next week or so.

to travel in Singapore

2008-09-30T23:59:00.001+08:00

this whole day is a traveling nightmare, spent like 5-6 hours on public transports around Singapore which has now surely climbs to my number one hate to do list. On the road here means only waiting for your destination, no scenario to look out for (unless u like the rows of rows of HDB flats whizzing pass). Sure, you can take out your Ipods, but inevitably, you will run out of songs, of battery, of the joy of listening and find yourself staring once more at the HDBs. Worse still if caught in traffic jam, or happens to be in a super crowded bus or train, imagines all the bloody smells confined inside (arghhhh!!!), all the swaying and jerking motions inside (WTH!), all the dead faces of commuters. I am amazed i managed to survive that today with only a little bit nausea. Haha.

this morning needed to attend an interview at Kaki Bukit area which i only found out yesterday night located east of Singapore. I wouldnt want travel so far to work so there was no point in turning up, but being unable to cancel the interview (because i am paiseh), i reached the company anyway and happened to meet a very cheerful and fun loving interviewer, the general manager. we had the interview for around 15 minutes, he was all smiling, we had a very nice chat, in the end he kills my esteem by telling me to find altenative jobs (they are looking for more experience guys). sigh......what a 笑里藏刀

Indonesian

2008-09-27T01:50:00.004+08:00

i always thought my indonesian language is bad, but now i know its not only bad but terrible. the other day Teddy asks me out on 'Kamis', the word 'Kamis' made me forget i had something else to do on that day, so i said okay to Teddy. you see, sometimes i cant relate to bahasa indonesia very well. excuse me if i am saying "i am an englishman" -.-"

Being a true male earthling, it is very natural to always see beautiful women. somebody suggests beauty is only skin deep, hey! thats good enough!

I'm tired of all this nonsense about beauty being only skin deep. That's deep enough. What do you want -- an adorable pancreas? -- Jean Kerr.

overly suspicious

2008-09-24T02:25:00.003+08:00

the recent news about poisonous substance melamine found on china milk show that we human beings do make mistakes. there are no continuous 100% guaranteed in everything! the only way we can do is to minimise these kind of errors.

because of this milk scare incident, i wont get to eat my M&Ms, dove chocolates, oreos etc etc. i would think twice when the auntie selling me fish head noodle ask "xiao di, want to add milk?". i would eat my ice kacang without milk which is like eating bread with no jam. arghhh! now i decided not to be overly suspicious, let the AVA authority do their business and we should just carry on our lives as normal.

hear my ranting

2008-09-20T10:17:00.004+08:00

few days ago i accidentally found my little cousin Jacqueline has a blog. wow!!! am i overreacting or wat? primary sch going kids are writing blogs regularly. shouldnt they spent more time on their homeworks or revising their textbooks? huh.. when i was arnd her age, my favourite pasttime was fishing, i didnt have any idea what a blog is. i guess this is what they call generation gap. well, browsing through her blog was fun, it was simple and straight to the point and very honest, just like how a kid should be.

i had a very sound nap on the afternoon, woke to find those smelly clothes still in my bag. i had forgotten to unload them after a day of badminton. the smell was very bad, till i believe can faint when sniffing for too long. (facepalm+shit) my aunt does all the washing for me, wonder what she going say about that:)

the phone has been silent for quite a while, everyone seems to be busy with their own business. i was left cooping in my room on a sat night, :< oh yeah, but tml will be better, QH and Terrence and me will be at Harry's Bar again to watch football. Chelsea have a very long unbeaten record at home, i hope tml Manu can end it. hahaha.

back to the past

2008-09-19T01:32:00.001+08:00

Recently i have been quite nostalgic about things. i reminisce a lot about those secondary school days when hanging out Terrence and Qh, i replay dragon ball videos and recalling all vcds i rent together with my neighbour friend, looking at those really old photos my sister brought to Singapore. Ooooooo...the past is beautiful:):)

I know i cant always buried myself in the past, the present will become history and i should treasure the present. nothing wrong with remembering those beautiful memories though, if it brings a smile on ur face. BE HAPPYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

job interviews

2008-09-18T01:16:00.001+08:00

These few days i will be busy preparing for interviews. It dawns on me that minutes spent inside the interview room will determine probably the rest of my career. 0: i am getting a bit nervous. oh, comeon..close ur eyes..deep breathes..in out in. once a lecturer tell us the best way of dealing with nervousness is to stand on two feet and channelling all the fear into the ground. i think its all in the mind, just stay relax.

find a job

2008-09-15T23:34:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow i shall have a job interview and i aint gonna accept $1200 or $1300 salary. the guy on the phone suggested me different pos i can apply and persuaded me to come down. the near future sure looks quite bleak, it sucks. i wanna earn at least 3000 bucks to cover all my expenses really.:0 and its going to be a rat race out there. know what the worse is?

"The trouble with the rat race is that even if you win, you're still a rat." Lily Tomlin

race against time

2008-09-14T23:56:00.001+08:00

time waits no man. i need time and 24 hours dont seem really enough for a day. somebody suggests time management, i appreciate it, just the execution part is hard. i should just reduce the amount of time spent on insignificant tasks now, like playing pool table game with a computer or daydreaming in the morning, the former of which has developed into a kind of addiction. weird -.-"

and i am going to seriously look for a nice job tomorrow. so friends, dont ask me the same 'u found a job?' question. i know u means well, but it starts to get annoying on me. :<

well, so much things to do now i have to stop writing. haha---toodle-oo

my team lost

2008-09-13T23:30:00.001+08:00

WatchFootball

Gosh!! tonight felt dreadful after watching Man U on TV. We lost 2-1 to our most hated rival, liverpool. two defensive mistakes lost us the points and as if rubbing salt into the wound, Vidic got send off near the end, meaning he will miss the Chelsea game next weekend!!

i felt indifferent with Qinghao riling me with his taunts of Man U throughout the game. when come to football, we dont usually think on the same page. in contrast, its fun having rivalry on something. chelsea, pls lost tonight too! so i can have my payback. :p

Kallang Roar

2008-09-12T03:51:00.000+08:00

WatchMovie

even as a football fanatic, Kallang Roar doesnt appeal to me. This movie recounts one of the most historic sporting achievement of Singapore, winning the Malaysia Cup back in 1977. there are a bunch of colourful characters in the team and a tough, no nonsense gaffer called Uncle Choo in the film. oh, my favourite here is dollah kassim who is hilarious throughout.

Anyway, it was terrence who suggested this movie. so, we catched it today at Lido cinema at 5pm (the only time slot for Kallang Roar). Though the movie is quite predictable with the plots, the essence of Singapore is very easy to relate and enjoy. The strange thing here is being a local production, i am quite surprised by the turnouts, 9 people (include us)!! lol. I think the rest all flocked to Wall-e or Babylon A.D., the support here is missing.

After the show, Terrence kept asking how to say the chant repeatedly heard during the show. Haha, now i teach you,

"UNTUK BANGSA DAN NEGARA!MAJULAH!!!!"

a new breath of life

2008-09-10T23:31:00.001+08:00

I awoke today and felt great. I dunnoe why i am feeling that way but certainly i would welcome it everyday. One thing i am curious is how the hell my mood always change very fast, one moment feeling so happy then the next hour feeling so lousy. this sucks, seriously.

The world didnt end today as opposed to those idiots who said so. See yesterday post.0.0 One of the important lesson to learn is live each day as if its ur last. What would u do if today is the last day of ur life? Ponder this... live with no regrets.

"Working soon"

World Ending Science Experiment!

2008-09-09T16:58:00.001+08:00

Earth will reach the End tomorrow if according to those opposing the biggest science experiment ever. Here is the video:

so for now, goodbye to everyone alive.

God is male or female?

2008-09-09T15:02:00.000+08:00

george carlin said if there is a god, god must be a guy.

"No woman could or would ever fuck things up like this"

i know he meant it as a joke, i cant just kept wondering, thats all.

I love you mum

2008-09-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

I hate this feeling of fear. yesterday, mum called and i was very happy because she dont usually dialled my number. i dont remember saying i love you to mum before and the fear of these words swallow me again. How i wish fear is controllable where you can just switch it off for a while. Damn it.

Fear is an useless emotion. pls, somebody comeup with something to make it disappear.

Obsession is a short-sightedness disease

2008-09-07T16:56:00.000+08:00

to JY and Amin: to his dream girl and the latter to Apple products.

Obsession merely clouded our vision beyond. Though i admit i am a victim too. Ooops.
something to ponder now,

Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you want

Quote noted from Randy Pausch' last lecture video. Excellent isnt it?

freedom taken for granted

2008-09-07T16:10:00.000+08:00

i have always been an avid reader of george orwell's novels. here is one of my favourite quote of all time:

"Freedom is the freedom to say that two plus two make four. If that is granted, all else follows."
extract from george orwell's 1984

i like this quote simply because it serves to remind us of the freedom we enjoy.

my blog

2008-09-07T01:37:00.001+08:00

whenever u are travelling alone in a train, a bus, a plane or whatever transportation mediums, always u see dead faces around. u sneakily look at them trying to see through their souls and wondering why god does not give us default smiling faces.

i kinda like these thoughts. u ask questions that u dont usually heard "normal" people would ask. i wouldnt say i am abnormal or insane because i believe its a way to gain a higher level of thinking. seriously.0_0

i want a blog which can record down my thoughts as i grow up. it would be interesting to look back in the future i think. so tadaaa......